Starting School (Me and the Kids)

It has seemed so far away since I applied and was accepted to the Fordham MSW program earlier this year, but all of a sudden, it's upon me. My first class is this Saturday and before you know it, my kids will start kindergarten a week later. I went from feeling like I had everything under control to suddenly feeling like I have no time whatsoever.

Orientation was today and I was planning to attend, but the administrators assured me it was unnecessary as I did it last year. So come Saturday it will be me diving right into school. I'm not necessarily worried about handling the workload or tests or papers ... I guess it's a bit of trepidation after 2 years home with the kids and also hoping that I'll continue enjoying it as much as I did the trial class I took last fall.

I'm not really sure what the purpose of this post is ... my mind is kind of on hiatus and I'm holding my breath a bit, waiting for all the changes to begin. I thought I would cry when my kids started kindergarten and there's still time for that to happen, but there's more of a bittersweet empty nest vibe where I'm sad that they're not adorable little toddlers anymore. Instead, they are wonderful, young children with all sorts of complicated thoughts and feelings that I'm not sure I'm up to handling. I know that it will all work out and not be nearly as difficult as it may seem now, and at the same time, there will be challenges that I never anticipated. So here goes!